Expansion of Relationships

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Strange Requests

One Sunday morning, I was still lying in bed around 10 a.m. when Erik came into the bedroom and asked me to go somewhere with him. I whined and moaned because I didn’t want to do anything or go anywhere that day. Even though I really never felt good when I just stayed in bed, it sounded a lot better than expending the energy it would take to get up and do something, but he was insistent that he really wanted me to go with him. Finally, I acquiesced, with the stipulation that I took a shower before we left. He insisted it would be quick and he promised me we wouldn’t see anyone so I could shower when we got back.

I found it strange that he turned left, instead of right, out of the driveway which took us into our small town. We lived on the edge of town and I didn’t have a lot of business there so it was rare those days that I went into our town at all. Shortly after he started driving down Main Street, “I’m Already There” by Lonestar came on the radio. He began to reminisce because he told me he used to listen to this song when he was truck driving over the road and this song gave him comfort when he was missing me and the kids. When we got to the end of Main Street, he turned left and I assumed he was just taking the back way out, but as soon as we popped over the hill and I saw the cemetery, I knew inside where he was taking me.

Spirit Messages

As soon as he turned off the main road toward the cemetery, tears began to stream down my face. He parked in front of the graves of my late siblings—Wendy, Peter and Dan—and he got out of the truck and left me sitting there. I sat there and sobbed while I could feel love from Peter and Dan wrap around me with such an intense love that permeated every single part of me. This is what really opened up my willingness to believe that they are still walking with me. Peter passed shortly after his 21st birthday when I was 19; he had a tortured life in so many ways. As I have mentioned before, Dan committed suicide in 2012. Wendy was someone I never knew because she only lived a few hours before she passed and was older than me.

When Erik got back into the pickup, he started it up and began driving us home. He told me that Peter and Dan came to him and asked him to take me to the cemetery. He explained to me that they don’t hang out at the cemetery all the time, it was just a place he could take me that was peaceful and quiet, especially on a Sunday morning and they felt that they could really get through to me. I didn’t doubt for a minute anything that Erik was telling me because I knew that he was sensitive to the energy of spirits that have passed. He had talked to me about it a few times.

Overwhelming Fear

At this time, I had been reading “The Law of Attraction” by Esther and Jerry Hicks. I had told Erik about it and I can see now that this was his invitation from me to truly be more open to fostering the same gift he had inside of him to communicate with the Other Side.

After that day, my brothers came to him with messages for me which astounded and amazed me. Peter especially was talking about things that I never talked to Erik about. I had shared the “highlight reel” so to speak with Erik of my life before him, but Peter was diving deeper and it gave Erik a greater glimpse into me and why I was shaped the way I am.

Eventually, the more it happened, it began to scare me because it felt like Erik was getting closer to the Other Side than he was to his life here. It made me afraid that I was going to lose him. With the unpredictability caused by his health issues at that time, I asked him to stop giving me messages from my brothers. I just wanted to create a bubble around us and just keep things the way they were for that time… but that didn’t happen.

Faith Over Fear

I know that my experiences during that time really laid out the foundation for me to foster these spiritual relationships further, and for that I am thankful. There is something about having the courage to believe in the things that I cannot see that was so hard, but, it pulled at me so strongly. I didn’t jump into the deep end with this faith, my progress has been slow and steady, and I know this is because I had to process everything in my own way and in my own time. Fostering these relationships is what keeps my hope and faith alive while living here in this world now.